He said â€œEveryone has the happiness they need they just need to look for it inside themselvesâ€
I pulled back my long stringy blond hair from my face and squinted my eyes in disbelief- as I donâ€™t believe everything men tell me- especially after just breaking up with my boyfriend- and pushed up my chin a little.
â€œWhat do you mean by that?â€ I asked.
â€œWell itâ€™s true. I think people continue to go around looking for the perfect person or thing to complete themselves in life when they donâ€™t need to look for anything but whatâ€™s inside themâ€ He said with a mystical smile.
The alcohol was starting to kick in and I was wondering how I got into his apartment to begin with. Oh yes- we came home from work at the same time and he and I caught each other at the mail boxes. I donâ€™t know why I said yes to a drink? Why indeed? His face looks so young until he smiles and then you might catch the lines around his eyes. I know heâ€™s older than me. One thing I had to say he was every bit the gentleman.
â€œAre you a profit or just a bullshiter?â€
Every tooth in his mouth was visible from across the room.
â€œWell darlinâ€™ you are going to have to figure that one out.â€
I snickered at the darlinâ€™ remark. When was the last time they used darlinâ€™ in this century? Time to change the subject.
â€œWhy did you invite me here?â€
â€œWhy do you think?â€
Oh great- answer a question with a question- BRILLIANT! He was getting a little to comfortable in that Jack and Coke on the couch.
â€œTo get into my pants.â€
He paused with a look of distain.
â€œIs that what you think?â€
â€œThatâ€™s what most guys want.â€
â€œWellâ€¦Iâ€™m not most guys.â€
â€œSo far you arenâ€™t like most guys.â€
Letâ€™s get the record strait the evening is still young!
He rolled his eyes. There was a lull. We drank some more trying to pretend there wasnâ€™t. I played with my hair and he pretended not to notice.
â€œSo why am I here?â€ I said almost slurring.
â€œI donâ€™t know- you came here.â€
â€œBut you asked.â€
He sat there so helplessly. He really is kinda cute.
â€œAnd I thought maybe you needed some where to talk- maybe let go some of thatâ€¦â€
â€œOhâ€¦Energy from the very public breakup?â€
Oh yes- the breakup. Ralph my live-in boyfriend for 2 Â½ years decided to ride his Harley up the steps of my second story apartment to ask me one last time to go riding off with him into the sunset. That just started a screaming match with the neighbors all standing around wondering whether to call 911 or to kick out his sorry ass. Ralph was a little bit of a dramatist. Well the cracks in that veneer had already been showing. YES! Veneer! And I say words like â€˜indeedâ€™ I went to college! Penn State in fact- donâ€™t let these hoop earrings fool you: just because I donâ€™t have taste doesnâ€™t mean I have class- majored in English and work in advertising. There is more to this chick than boobs and hair.
â€œYes.â€ I said with a little smirk.
â€œSome place to say- this and that in a OK- way that isnâ€™t going to be rattling in your head or around your apartment. Cause Iâ€™ve been thereâ€¦I knowâ€¦â€
Awww that sounds so sweet. I moved over next to him. I thought he would jump.
â€œYouâ€™ve been there?â€
â€œOh yes- been thereâ€¦.done thatâ€¦rattled aroundâ€¦in silenceâ€¦with no one to talk to about thingsâ€¦lots of anger.â€
â€œAnd no one to hearâ€
â€œAnd youâ€™d do that?â€
In his face.
â€œBecause we are neighbors?â€
â€œBecause Iâ€™ve been there.â€
â€œWhat are you sick?â€
â€œNo- I donâ€™t think so.â€
â€œAre you GAY?â€
â€œArenâ€™t I your type?â€
There he goes he jumped up!
â€œUMâ€¦SURE YOU ARE VERY ATTRACTIVE!â€
â€œTHEN WHY DONâ€™T YOU WANNA GET INTO MY PANTS!!â€
He stood there looking at me for an instant looking me over and I was getting insulted. Iâ€™m a fine looking woman that could get any 25-28 good looking guy at a club with a snap of my fingers! Now Iâ€™ve been already broken up by my boyfriend this week- do I need this old man in tan short and polo to be putting my off now too? CHRIST!
â€œWell- I really hadnâ€™t thought about it but fine- but donâ€™t you want to get over one relationship first before you go jumping into another?â€
I just batted my eyes.
â€œJUST GET ME ANOTHER DRINK!â€